Thursday, February 16, 2012

Update part 2

The other entry was getting too long...

Wow... that was a long winded rant, but some other news that is going on.... I have a new calling at Church. I am the Young Womens 1st counselor. I thought it was interesting that the Lord wanted me here when we are getting ready to move states. But I know that I am needed whether I am there for a short time or not. I was in a Young Womens calling last year and was released almost a year into it to be a Gospel Doctrince teacher. It was difficult for me to accept the realease because I felt I was not doing good enough. And I really wasn't. I could have done more so many times. However, I knew the Lord made the right decision. I was able to focus more on my own spiritual strength and my marriage.
I love the women I am serving with and I believe that we all have something very much in common that will truley help us in our callings. I love serving the Young Women and teaching them about their strength as daughters of God and the potential their Heavenly Fathers see in them.

Fairbanks Family Update

Well, if it hasn't gone viral already, it has now. Im pregnant! Nah..... just kidding! I almost had you at that one!

The news with us is that Curtis is in UT and I am here in New Mexico. He went to UT to find a job! While this is so exciting, its also bittersweet. For one big reason, Curtis is there and I am here! (I really need to get over my "need-y-ness") The other thing... we might move. However, I will go where ever God needs us. I will really miss the friends that I have made here in New Mexico and the family I have here. But..... if we dont end up moving, then Hey! New Mexico friends, I love you, and all this is history!

Curtis graduated from CNM in January. He has his associates in Engineering. Now, all of you know he has been going to school for a loooooooooong time.  So he should have like a bachelors and in graduate school by now right? If thats what you are thinking... stop judging. Things changed last year and this is the move he needed to make. The great thing..... he wil be working! Its important for Curtis to work. He likes to work! The lovely things about him work, the idea of starting a family seems even that more possible. Knowing Curtis, he will go back to school, more part time than anything. If he does go back to school I will be proud of him and if he does not go back to school I will be proud of him!

So often we get cought up in how society expects our lives to go.

 In the LDS community we should not have been engaged 10 months, we should have gotten pregnant within 3 months of marriage, Curtis should have an MBA in Engineering, I should be barefoot and pregnant with my 3rd child, and we should have a house.

In the modern world, Curtis and I should NOT have gotten married, be living together, travel the world, finish our degrees, have careers, wait to have kids when Curt is almost 40 and I am like 32, and then decide to get married.... maybe.

But in my world, this is how it is.... we waited 10 months to get married because that was the request of my parents (it was so I could finish my degree) and we felt should respect my parents wishes. We married eachother because there is more love then we both could have ever imagined. We do not have kids because we are on Gods times table, I have not rushed the to the Doctor to fix the problem because it just has not felt right yet. We do not have a house because one, we are not financially capable quite yet, and two, when we buy a house we want to live in it forever, so where  the house is should be where we want to be, and we have never felt sure about New Mexico. So, we have not been rushing into everything like most LDS people would want, we are not, from the worlds perspective, putting off the truley important things like marriage and kids. We are living happily together in our marriage, Building a solid foundation of love, trust, patience, forgivness, partnership and friendship.

We are so happy! We built this happiness on our own! When things got hard and people told us to get out, we didn't! We forgave and loved eachother! When one of us struggled in school or work we learned to lift each other and be a friend rather put down the other and expect the impossible. I feel that when God blesses us with Children the greatest gift we will be giving them is the strength and love of our marriage. And Curtis does not have his bachelors yet, because well, he just doesn't. And that is OK. I am soooooooooooooooo proud of him!!


Sunday, February 12, 2012

Feelings of Forever

 As Valentines Day is very soon approaching I can't help but rekindle the cheesey romantic love I feel for Curtis. Since he is out of town this Valentines Day this year (my first one alone!!) I have decided to celebrate it in my own way. I will eat chocolate, watch chic flics all day long, and make a care package for Curtis (he is in UT, and will be there for a little while). To kick this time off I am going to post some cheesy songs and clips from movies that remind me of Curtis and I.

First one....

This is from the play Saturday's Warrior, and LDS flick. I feel like this is what Curtis and I said to eachother before we came here.  With Curtis, feelings are forever, ever since I met him there was a familiarity that felt like we have been best friends a lot longer then just the almost 7 years we have known each other.



This next Clip is a Scene from the movie "The Young Victoria" (This movie describes our marriage to a "T" and protrays the strong love that exists between us. When I watch this movie I am reminded of the strong bond we have that will last FOREVER, and I am not being cheesey, I mean it from the bottom of my heart) Right before this scene Prince Albert had just taken a bullet for Victoria while they were riding in a carriage. Just before the carriage ride they were arguing about her status as queen and Alberts role in all of it. What is amazing is the love you see in this scene.



Next Clip, The little Mermiad. I have ALWAYS thought Curt and I look just like Ariel and Eric. I just love this movie. There is just a sweet innocent love between the two. Our first kiss went a lot like this... well... it was not in a pretty logoon or anything. It was on temple square conference weekend in April 2006. It took a long for it to happen no matter how much I bat my eyes. It almost felt like if the birds around us could talk they would say "Kiss her already!" It was a beautiful day.

When and Curtis and I first "met" it was much like this song.... "A Heart Full of love" from the broadway musical a Les Miserables. We had been friends, but we call the night we first met as SINGLE young adults, (every time we were around eachother before then we were dating some one else) We realized that we could be something wonderful. There was no fear between us, it as if some higher power was ready for us to come together.


Our wedding song

Love This



Have you ever been in love?


I hope every one has a lovely Valentines day! And Curtis, I am going to miss you like crazy!!